Thursday, May 20, 2010

Life's moments...

As the weeks have turned into months, I have watched two of my co-workers blossom along what will become a sweet but sometimes painful journey that many of us know as motherhood. While I listen to their worry and excitement for all the new things to come; I am reminded of my own little one and the joy she brings me each day. You see, there is nothing else on Earth that can describe what it is like to be able to create and watch over another life, a life so close to your own you can almost feel their heart beat. Everyday you are filled with so much love,hope, nervous anxiousness, and awe...all at the same time. To be able to watch a piece of you grow little by little each day into a beautiful strong and little person is a gift that only GOD could provide.

When she was a little bit younger(she is only at the tender age of 6)... she'd always ask me to sing to her. I always had my favorite and I would not hesistate to oblige her, because to her it didn't matter that I didn't have the perfect pitch or that I may have messed up the words... to her it was beautiful. Some time has passed and she hadn't asked me to sing to her in a while, but last night as I lay her down almost half asleep already, she lay with her eyes closed and just as I kissed her and prepared to walk out, I heard a little voice request to hear "some people" as she calls Alicia Keys' song titled, "If I Aint Got You".



I turned and asked her why she'd chosen tonight to have me sing that song to her and she said to me in a half sleep/half awake voice, "Because you won't be here when I wake up in the morning,(my ER shift begins at 6am) and whenever I miss you the most I always remember 'some people'(a song I sang religiously to her as a baby and a toddler)." I choked back my tears and prepared myself to give her the best rendition I could muster up despite the lump in my throat and as I sang I saw her drift farther and farther into sleep with an angelic smile on her face, I knew that this was one of the moments I would remember for the rest of my life.

I have posted a few pics of my sweet girl...I hope you enjoy them as much as I do.